Brian's NYC

I was told today that they have hired someone to permanently take over my temp position, and my last day is next Friday. I’m not upset or scared or anything, just a bit shocked. When I was assigned this position, they kept talking about it being a ‘6-month gig.’ I suppose what they meant was it could be up to a 6-month gig. It makes perfect sense that they needed someone to temporarily fill the shoes of the position after the previous assistant was re-assigned to a different office. And it makes perfect sense to make sure that the temporary person is available for the full range of the grace period before they find a replacement. And it also makes sense that the two other assistants have been meeting with people, introducing them around the office and passing resumes around.
The Office Manager here asked if I would be interested in applying for the permanent position. I obviously declined. I am not ready to make a commitment like that, and after doing it in Los Angeles, I do not think it is wise to handle a full time day job, as well as trying to audition full time. My opportunity in LA was a rare one, but I ultimately felt torn between my job and my career, and in the end was not able to audition as much as I wanted to. I gave my Thanksgiving and Christmas schedule to my manager, and we did some shuffling around with the others’ schedules to make it all work. Why would they do that if they were so close to finding a replacement? Making sure they’re prepared for anything/anyone, or poor communication?
Regardless of the reason, I am out of an assignment as of next week. Of course it is a bit scary to think that I may not have something lined up right away, but I need to take this as a sign that it is time for me to suck it up and start auditioning. I was afraid to ask for time off to audition here because I didn’t make it clear enough at the forefront. I know now that the clock is ticking and it is time for me to start doing what I came here to do: audition and network and hopefully be able to make a career out of performing. ‘Adjusting to the city’ is an excuse I have been using up until this point, and this is an indication that it’s time to put myself out there and start taking risks again!